WELCOME BACK LIFE PASSION

I've been away for so long. I've set it private for my eyes only because some things were so painful. I've decided to reopen it because, it's time I face it.

Beautiful, beautiful memories will be with me forever.

I hope it will be there with you too, should you ever read this blog ever again, whom it was once created for.

magaritaqueen.xanga.com will still be my focus, but from time to time I might just update here.

I've grown since the years, and ever since joining my current industry, I've grown so much more.

I just wanted to say thank you for everything. Thank you for the wonderful memories, thank you for opening up this career path for me.

My only regret is not to have joined you and I guess that's when things fell apart. Time and time again I wish the hands of the clock will turn back, but it wouldn't.

Given a choice, there're so many things I want to undo but sadly, I won't be given the chance anymore. Let faith lead me on, and let me learn to let go. 

Perhaps you have done so successfully, which is something good and I should be happy about, but all I can do is just making wild guesses.

MY PLACE CALLED SOLACE

This is the place that makes me sane and to seek solace. When I opened magaritaqueen, I told myself there won't be any depressing entries but here, it's the most private and somehow, in writing, it does makes me feel better.

Things didn't turn out well yesterday. I was home early which I wasn't suppose to. Although I kinda expected this situation, but it did certainly spoil the day today.

A stupid customer didn't help either when I was kind enough to call him to ask for his details. His application that he assed over to me which I need to forward to the card centre had missing details. Out of goodwill, I called him to check but he blasted over the phone to say "Why so troublesome?"

Then why are you so troublesome as to miss out important details like your card number or your i/c number? Do you think our system is so damn advance that we can search just by your Christian name and a family name? Lots of people may have the exact same name as you. Hope your wealth all goes over to other people then. WTF....... If that's what you want it.

I didn't feel too good so I called bao. His replies were mostly singular answers as he just woke up and he's not feeling too good. I don't blame him, but I was hoping he'll bring some light to me.

The weather too turned cloudy and now it's pouring. What a sad day isn't it?

Time is crawling too, it's only 11.39am.

PAIN

I felt the pain today and we quarelled ourselves silly just because of such a minor issue. A kind gesture turned out horribly wrong. What more can I say?

We were on the bike and just before the traffic light where our quarrel started, I told him I didn't want him to ride so recklessly. He did so yesterday which pissed me off big time because, it's as though he didn't care about safety at all, not even mine. Not even after the accident. It made me feel sad. It made me feel as though if one day I die, it's ok. Life goes on, as what you said, as though I don't mean a thing to you. All those sweet nothings you told me when I was overseas seemed lost. Is that true?

At the traffic light when it was red, there was something dirty on his face so I helped him to take it away. But I rubbed on his shirt and he got really mad. It was something sticky and not easily to be flung off. Maybe I don't have the habit of flinging off sticky stuffs. I don't play with shit and roll it into a ball like some dirty old man.

Upon green light, he zoomed off on the bike not caring about anything. Just because he is pissed off at my so called kind intention and he needed to show his displeasure.

How immature.

True, I was indeed not right to hit you hard on your helmet. And I am sorry for that. At least I admit it. Perhaps to you you didn't do anything wrong, but to me I felt that you don't even care about my life and safety even after repeated warnings from me previously.

At my house, I wanted to appease things with you because I don't feel good about us not talking to each other. But you didn't show any signs of remorse, much less getting a sincere apology from you.

You've not or perhaps never put yourself into other people's shoes. How much other people care for you. Even not for me, for your family members at least.

Suddenly I felt like I'm nothing to you. I thought you'll know the pain of losing someone you love because you ever had that experience. And how painful was that?

Should you ever lose me one day, will you regret? Or perhaps not.

Now I'm telling you, I am damn sad.

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I've set up a publicised blog. Have  been wanting to do so for a long time, fnially set it up today. Anyway, I'll still post entries here, perhaps not as often, and it's more private here. Some people may already have access to it, you can continue to read here but please dear friends, don't publicise this one kzzzz.

Thanks folks!

BARBIE LOVES M.A.C.

That was the event that I went (at Vivocity) but sad to say, the picture I took was damn ugly I tell you. The hairstylist made me aged 20 years although the make-up was ok. My make-up artist is Fifi and she's so pretty! A pity I didn't take a picture of her.

Anyway, here's some pics of the Barbies. Photos courtesy of Augustine Ho. I took the pictures from his website cos those Barbie's that I look can't be compared to his professional camera.

I sat at this table for my picture to be taken. Very pretty right? I think I'm gonna get something like that for my home next time. Dolly.

My all-time favourite Barbie. So pretty!

Super sophisticated.

This is nice too. Her face looks very sweet. Some Barbies which I didn't put any pictures here are not that pretty.

Juicy Couture!!!

Does this girl look like real-life Barbie to you?

I got their super pinkish lipstick and gloss. So nice!!!!!

And that's me.......... I hated the hair so I tied up instead. Ain't showing the picture the photographer took. Oh ya, gotta complain something too. The photographer was busy talking to his friend or a girl he just knew, and kept delaying me. WTH....... So UNPROFESSIONAL!

Anyway, bao came and help me take these 2 pics.

After that, we had dinner at Terra, Bao's first time there and the food is quite good and not that pricey. Ambience is good enough as well. You guys should try. It's on 2nd level of Vivoity.

Then, we had a walk and I spotted this super cute and skinny snowman. I like snowman. Hehe... Cos I was once called 'Xue Ren'- Sharon.

And today, at home, nothing better to do.......

It's gonna be Monday and the last day of my long leave. I so hate to go back to work. Sigh.... but I need the money. Lol!

By the way, I got 2 admission tickets to Singapore Fashion Festival and a night show some more. One ticket is freaking ex as far as I can remember. I'm esctatic! Such a gala event, I don't wanna miss it! I wanted to watch it for a long long time......