I felt the pain today and we quarelled ourselves silly just because of such a minor issue. A kind gesture turned out horribly wrong. What more can I say?

We were on the bike and just before the traffic light where our quarrel started, I told him I didn't want him to ride so recklessly. He did so yesterday which pissed me off big time because, it's as though he didn't care about safety at all, not even mine. Not even after the accident. It made me feel sad. It made me feel as though if one day I die, it's ok. Life goes on, as what you said, as though I don't mean a thing to you. All those sweet nothings you told me when I was overseas seemed lost. Is that true?

At the traffic light when it was red, there was something dirty on his face so I helped him to take it away. But I rubbed on his shirt and he got really mad. It was something sticky and not easily to be flung off. Maybe I don't have the habit of flinging off sticky stuffs. I don't play with shit and roll it into a ball like some dirty old man.

Upon green light, he zoomed off on the bike not caring about anything. Just because he is pissed off at my so called kind intention and he needed to show his displeasure.

How immature.

True, I was indeed not right to hit you hard on your helmet. And I am sorry for that. At least I admit it. Perhaps to you you didn't do anything wrong, but to me I felt that you don't even care about my life and safety even after repeated warnings from me previously.

At my house, I wanted to appease things with you because I don't feel good about us not talking to each other. But you didn't show any signs of remorse, much less getting a sincere apology from you.

You've not or perhaps never put yourself into other people's shoes. How much other people care for you. Even not for me, for your family members at least.

Suddenly I felt like I'm nothing to you. I thought you'll know the pain of losing someone you love because you ever had that experience. And how painful was that?

Should you ever lose me one day, will you regret? Or perhaps not.

Now I'm telling you, I am damn sad.